At home in bed

Ohh by the light my head feels like it is going to explode... What happened last night? Ohh right, the talk with Shan about Whalt just brought back so many bad memories... God thing i held my ground when Whalt came and found us, as i was ready to take it all out on him... But it is not my place to meddle and Whalt really seems like a nice guy...

Well Aylian seems nice as well but so insecure of herself and what she has to offer, maybe that's why she uses her body the way she does? To cover up what lies beneath, so afraid that people would not like what she is... inside... Poor woman

I still think it strange about that bite mark and i don't really believe her when she said she thought i said feral instead of feline... i don't know much about animal bites so i could be wrong... and why was it a secret... making me swear not to tell? Well my paranoia sure has its ideas but again it is not my place... I am scared by my path and sees ghosts every where i guess.

... well okay it was not all just about Shan and Whalt.. i know... But the thought of him calling her that just made me feel so insignificant. I don't care what he has been calling girls in the past.. I just hope he doesn't use those words about them... now?!
She is SO beautiful and what am i compared to that, i saw her almost naked and that a body a simple little thatchers girl from Westfall could only dream about... I did not see her "HOT" legs though but i am sure he is right... everything else about her looks is perfect.

Ohh right that woman Miss Kate i think it was... strange i actually think she was hitting on me? never really understood that whole woman desiring another woman... i is very strange how it seems that one is much for attractive to others when they are in a relationship, its like you send out some kind of feramone or something... Just hope Jerrys not to strong or he at least has the will to not succumb... I still hold a spark of doubt in my heart... but it is not because of him... it is still the memory of Jas lurking in the darkness of my mind.
Was funny to hear Jerry and miss Kate talk almost like rivals... but he knows i would never be with another man OR woman.. does he not?

Well a good think i haven't seen rolling hips guy Selacious around for a long time, that fire he seemed to start back then still burns inside... not for HIM of course, but just burns and it is hard at times to hold down.. the rage, the passion... burning like molten lava in my core.

Ohh my head.. i think i am thinking to much to early...