In Jasdevis quarter in the mage tower

It was a nice evening last night. I went to the party to make Jas happy even though i know i was not really wanted there, But well Jas's happiness means more than anything to me. And after all it was a good evening. I hope they will use their gift but if Jas is right well then it seems we will have to use it ourselves - not that that notion bothers me but well it was a gift i intended them to have. The game i must have misunderstood though the symbolic in the items we found was still somewhat spot on i think. We went as soons as it was proper as Jas had gotten hurt by Reike nit liking the gift and proberly also because she had such a hard time with me there making him feel some guilt towards his friend and me.

We whent to give the orphanage the leftover cake and such and meet the stranges man... something was off about him but i cant quite put my finger on what.

Jas took me to his room again and this time i dont think anyone was in the dark about me beeing there. But what a night... I get short of breath just thinking about it. This time Jas brought me breakfast in bed... I can look into those icyblue eyes until the great beyond swallows the world and to run my hands over his firm muscular body so unlike the other mages i have meet and his sly smile holding all the mysterious and secrets in all of Azeroth. Hmm seems i am getting carried
away here...


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever
safe.

On the way to Westfall

This is so much harder than i could ever imagine... I cannot go through too many more times like this. Every time he has been talking with her her comes back with doubts but when i ask him directly he has non...
When we are together he seems happy but not before going through this long prosees of removing the doubt about everything.
This is not good for him, it pains him...
I would never ask him not to see Reike so maybe i need to talk with her? Light give me strength for such a meeting.
But as his freind she must see that this is killing him and well we are not all monsters that want to hurt every one around us, but we are humans and we make mistakes.
I have told Jas that i will use every breath in my body to make up for what i did, but it is not at all cost... I love him without a shred of doubt and at some point he needs to trust ib that... in us... or we have failed. Oh please light do not take him from me just because i was weak and confused...

It was hard seeing Rabbit again but he can still make me smile even through all this. I hate to see how much this pains him and when it finally started to looses up a little Jas gets angry because he thinks Rabbits is flirting with me right in front of him... Does he not know Rabbit, he is a mischief, flirting is his second nature and he plays like that with all around him even the men - in a non sexcual way of course but beeing all sly and silly.
Why is it so hard to think about him? I have put aside all other feelings because i am where i belong.
Maybe Rabbit was right and we need to keep a distance at least for a while? But the thought of not seeing him at all makes my stomach hurt.
Why is this so hard and confusing when it should just be simple.

I really hope he listens and stays away from that girl... find someone... better.

I still dread tomorrows event... but at least i think i came up with a nice present though it actually took some time convincing Jas to give them one.
Why is he so hurt about not beeing there when they got married? Sometimes i think that he holds more feelings for her than he will ever admit, not even to himself. And it is easy to lock feelings away and turn them into friendship when the other is spoken fore. Well maybe not easy but easier then.


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

In the new home

Ohh this has been an evening and night i will not soon forget and it is not even over yet.

Every part of my body aches from the starin and yet I cannot get enought of him.

I am sitting here in front of the fireplace, the golden shine running over his naked muscular body. How did i ever get so lucky. I know i do not diserve him but i will do all i can to prove her wrong.

Ohh and the dress he has made for me is so beautifull i cannot belive it. He made for me to wear at the party tomorrow, but i am still unsure if i should come this is for Reike and Ibelim and well it is not like Reike well be to happy to see me..us together.

No matter now, now i only want to enjoy this time with him.. my love
Our swim in the ocean, the countless hours our bodies have united during the night.
And this morning weaking up like that... Was i even alive before Jas?
It seems we have forgotten his studies for a day, as he is still here. He needs the rest to... by the gods we both do... But i think i will make some breakfast first. Good place i have found now that i know he loves appels and the a dip to cool of my heated body before i weake him.

We talked all night as well, well when we were not otherwise occupied so i have learned a lot about him, but still there is so much to know...

An Jerome... i really hope i will find time to see him tonight, talk with him as he is the victim as much as Jas. I hope that it can sort itself out and i hope that Jas listened to what i said and understood what i was trying to tell him.
They need to make up, Jas needs to forgive him... as he has forgiven me!


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

In Jasdevis quarter in the mage tower

He has gone to his studies now.

I am sitting on his bed, no one knows i am here... I know this can get him in a lot of trouble, but i wanted to be close to him... I need him so much right now...

But if Reike manages to turn his head once more it will not go this way. How humiliating to stand there like a trial... All i said i had alsready the night before to Jas so what it was all for her?

I know she has her own troubles... maybe she should deal with them first. Jas is not a child. I know what i have done has hurt him but that does not give him the right... I almost went away from there, his eyes were the only thing keeping me.

Jerome was nice to me, tried to stand up for me, noticing... well that does not matter... I love Jas and i will bare this humiliation as a punishement for what i did...

But can i trust him to not behave like this again?

He needed her there... her support... and what about the Jerry and me? did he think we did not need someone to stand by us? that it did not hurt us?

Calm yourself Etaine

By the nethers it is only because i love him so that this hurt so badly.

But after she was gone, he came to me, he said that he too was sorry for this and that helped. I cannot stay mad at him when i am the one to blaime for his hurt.

All this has done that i have not had time to find a place for myself, but at least now i know i needs to be outside the city as i cannot breath here anymore.

I will go look for a place today if Jas can sneak me out, maybe with one of those portal things.

And i will go seek out Jerome to night, as Jas talks with Reike. I may not love him like I do with Jas but i still care greatly for him... I actually think i have hurt him the most, even though i know Jas will never be able to see that.

I had planned something special for night...need to go and cancel it... as he will be with her instead.

I can only hope that there will be tim efor it later... I pay that all this has not taken away his desire to show me how he feels... for me.

- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

In the Dalaran chambers

Hmm i wonder if he will still go with me tomorrow.

I hope he will, hope he will give me the chance to set things right.

I did not go to the cathedral, i couldn't so i have just been here thinking about it all.

I hate myself for all this... should i not have joined Starlight I was so happen and now
this... I have betrayed Jas, hurt Jerry, gotten Reike mad It seems that
i have done more harm than good. I fell like i am walking in darkness,
the path before me so unclear... I failed my test and the light seems more
distant to me...

The thought about running away from it all is still so alluring in my mind. Jerry was right about one thing... Jas diserves someone good And right now that is not me... he diserves so much better...

Reike should have kicked my behind... I need to make sure Jas talk with her letteing her know how valuable she is to him, im not going to let him push her away because of me.

- The light guide my steps and keep all my souls forever safe.

On the balcony in Dalaran

He left early to get to Stormwind for his studies.

I know it will be a long time before he will let me close again and how can i blaime him.

The chaos still fills me... I hold no doubt about my feelings for Jas but my feelings for Jerry are they purly platonic??? I dont know...
I should find out but i do not want to... I just want to keep it simple... uncomplicated

I just want Jas... More than anything... My entire body acke to feel his touch again.

Why did i kiss Jerry, i know it was almost to light to be even called a kiss but still why did i do it?
Was it simple because i was so worked up about what Jerry told me or was it because of something else?

I need to find myself again...

In the thunder falls mountains

No No No.. what have i done... How could this happen... Stupid Stupid girl
Betrayer...

Why did he haft to tell me... i thought it had all become clear... perfect... but when is live ever like that. Always so fickle making you belive in the light then throwing you into the neather...

I could not go to him inside in the bedchamber... what will he think when he wakes?
I am so unsure of everything... was it a lie or real..my feelings

Shalll i just run away?

Ohh the light give me strength... i know this is a test... but can i pass
It is so cold up here, all alone on the mountain top... but i have no where to go...
Why did i even choose to come here?

I love him but do i love them both?
I am not sure...
I knew it was all to fast... or would he have told me if i had not chosen Jas over him?

He told me he could never be with one that would tie him down and i belived him.
I made all so much easier as i liked them both but i knew so little about who they were. So when he pulled away it was easy to follow the other path ... not needing to think more over the other...

Ill i have said to Jas has been true...

But now what???


- The light guide my steps and keep all our souls forever safe.

In a bedchamber in Dalaran

Laying here on these silken sheets, i cant belive that this is not a dream.

I pinch myself just to make sure that i all this is real.

Laying here beside him watching him sleep, my eyes running along his features to linger at his soft lips.
I have never dared pray for what i have been given, dear friends, a brother, and now a lover.

Sister Briann was so tired of me as i keept messing up my chores as i could not quite keep my focus on my tasks. My thoughs kept drifting off. Finnal she scowlded me and told me to go fr a walk to clear my head.
Finnally i has my chance to sneak off as i knew she would been to busy with evening mass to come look for me. So i ran to the griphonmaster as i knew the others would b at the market.

There were and auction and a lottery but going to charity so i bought some and won three prizes.
Rabbits girl was up for auction and seems he enjoyed winning her.

After the auction Jas took me to see Ironforge and we whent to a small in there, we were the only ones there as many where out to see the market still, so we had the top all to our self.
We talked for some timeuntil we reached a topic that made him turn silent. I could clearly see the hurt in his icy blue eyes. I could not just sit there watching so i got up of my seat and walked over to stand beside his chair. He looked up at me with a slight smile. I took his head in my hands and kissed him softly on the lips whispering that i whan done is done and there was no blaim to be layed on him. He got up took me into his arms and held me close to him. I felt my body burn with the strange fire and as he kissed me softly i could only sigh but then his kiss became more craving pressing me against the wall behind us, and i could only respond in full as me body was no longer my own. I feelt a deep hunger and desire for him... all i could think of was him as our tongues danced. His hands moved over my body searchingly...
I pulled back as reality woke me from my dream asking him to remember where we were.
I did not want to let him go, nor do ii think he wanted to, i saw the longing in his eyes then a sly smile spread on his face... He asked me to come with him and how could i ever say no...
He took me to Daleran, to a room at one of the inns. Then all became like a dream... his passionat kissses, his wandering hands... I could not say no to him nor did i want to at that point as my entire beeing was screaming for him.
It hurt at first but no hurt could ever diminish the feeling of him.

His touches, his kisses still burn on my body... the thoughts of our passionat whispers in the night runs through my mind...

But was i to easy, he told me i was not... We do not even know each other yet though it all felt SO right....

I wander what tomorrow will bring, i can see the first rays of the sun through the balcony doorway...

I am going to be in a world of trouble when i get back... but i cannot care i could never traide this night for anything...


- The light guide my steps and keep him safe forever.

On the steps of the Cathedral

How can i be so lucky... I praise the light for showing me the way into Starlight... For giving me a brother... for giving me Jas...

It seems that all days are bliss after meeting them. Well sure i do miss my family a lot, but everything is much easier to bare, and when i am aound them i am happy again.

As i was walking from the Cathedral, he was there. He had come looking for me... I fell so alive when i am near him, like my whole body ignites when he is around. He sets my soul aflame with his kiss and i am out of breath when i look into his icy blue eyes.

I cant belive how a man like him could ever want a girl like me.

We went to Dalaran, with Rabbit... He took me into his arms as we floated from the largest tower i have ever seen to land softly on the streets.

Then we went to the sewers... Yes the sewers. But it was like a city within the city or well underneath. There were bottles that turned you into other things, was funny holding Rabbit in the palm of my hand as he had turned into an insect and Jas became a huge fat whalrushman...

Then he needed to go... always so soon... i think i will plann something for just the two of us... maybe this wensday... but what???

Ohh the light burn my soul, that goodbye was like nothing i have ever felt before, i felt like time stood still, i forgot all about Rabbit and the world around us. His body against mine as he held me close, his kiss so tender snf his lips soft. It felt like an inferno and all my sences were screaming for more... more of what? I dont even know... I have never...

Well Rabbit and i went for a drink but only one as i could not comcentrate and i needed to go clear my thoughts... I must find a way to sneak out tomorrow...

- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

On the way to the cathedral from the Blue Recluse

Ohh what a night... my head is spinning be it by the wine with Rabbit or the burning on my lips from Jas kiss.
And i have experianced so much... a bug bar icecream in silithus, bathing in the steam pools in Feralas - that was so much fun, Jas kiss when he went to get Reike - wonder if he would have stayed if i had asked that of him? Though i know i would never.
Mmm i could not keep my eyes to my self as we where bathing.
I need only close my eyes to see his fim muscular form, his dark hair and his icy blue eyes.
The mere thought makes my inside burn like fire...

An Rabbit - my borrowed brother. I can only say i love his way of beeing, so free and easy going.
I cannot anything but get a smile on my face when i think of him.

But the thought of beeing away from all of them all weekend...

I just want to close my eyes and have it become sunday... Jas is taking me to Dalaran to train...
Sunday...

I helped to have a drink with Rabbit i am sure i will sleep before my head even touches the pillow... Well should get out of these wet clothes firstly, seems my balance was affected by all that wine.
Maybe i should not have send that letter as i was slightly to affected by all that wine? Oh well will not be the last time i drink with them so he might as well know how i apprently am when i am... intoxicated.


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

In the sleeping chambers of the Cathedral

The light catch me for i am falling... How can i be so blessed... My heart is pounding so loud i cannot hear, my mind is racing making me all dizzy and my soul seems almost ignited with fire.

He likes me... he really likes me... Just like Rabbit said, i would never have dared to think this was possible. But thank the light for making my dreams come true.
We kissed... not on the lips but his kissed me on the cheek after making Rabbit look away.
And before he left i returned what he had given me.

Sometimes the fact that you are near me can take my breath away;
and all the things i want to say can find no voice.
Then in silence, i can only hope my eyes will speak my heart.

Well the day has just been one in a million, first i was out boying some more appropriet attire for the camping trip with Jerome. I took my hair down and placed the rose from Jas in my hair.

I meet Jerome at the gates and he took me into the mountains. It was a beautifull place but getting there was slightly difficult and i got all wet as i fell into the lake instead of jumping over like him. He took me to a hillside that looked out over Westfall, i did not let him see the single tear ofr he could not possible know what it meant to me. It was so beautifull, so breath taking.
He showed me how to make a fire and me made the most delicious rabbit stew. I deffinatly need to him to teach me how to make that. we had brought wine as well and we talked about all things big and small.

He seems so strong yet soft at heart... truely a free spirit.
I could just as easilly have lost my heart to him if he had not been such a ladies man.
I hope we will become close friends and i truely enjoy his company, like the broather i never had.
I cleaned up after dinner and gave him a back rub to show my appreciation. He seemd to enjoy it, i am glad that is my greates talent.. my hands.
We talked about Jas but how could i belive that Jas would like this little silly girl.

He named me Sugarcube and i named him Rabbit, cant even remeber why he named me that, it makes me sound like a piece of candy.

Well Rabbit and i went back to Stormwind to meet up with Jas and well i have already said the rest.


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

Walking home from Olivia's pond

This has been both a good and an awfull night. Jerome asked Jas and i out for a drink by Olivis'a pond, and then all of a sudden we were playing truth or dare and Reike had joined us. Then i was sked about my feelings for Jas... It was so emberassing to tell them all, knowing that he would just grin as he always does. And Jerome that evil bastard i am gonna kill him for making me dance before Jas. I didnt even dare to look at him. I know i would only see that teasing twinkel in his eyes... His deep deep eyes.
But it was fun and who can stay mad at Jerome... They were all running around naked, well except me and it was hard to keep my eyes of Jas when he was dared to strip down. Jumping of the waterfall, the water running down his face from his back hair as he came out of the water. Running down his well trained body... By the lights had i not turns away as he came up i am not sure what i would have done. He makes me burn inside by the mere thought of his hands, his strong hands and his lips, they seem so soft.
Listen to me rambling like a silly little school girl. I need to stop daydreaming all the time.
Be realistick girl. compared to the likes of Reike and that Draenei.

Well i whent with Jerome and Reike to see the sparring match Tharina and some elf had going on. After Jas left. But i didnt stay long. it got to late. But i am going camping with Jerome tomorrow. that i am really looking forward too.


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

At the bridge

Jerome has helped me with Mill tests and he is gonna take me camping. I am really looking forward to that. I really like him he always makes me laugh.
I am so thnakfull that Starlight took me in. I feel i am surrounded by so many heroes and strong beings of power and insight.
With them I am just a silly girl.
The light and the greater good must be to ensure that all of starlights heroes never fail.
Being the strong, united beacon to stand against darkness is of great importance to the on going battle around us.
I so admire everyone. I tremble when I realize how small I am compared to them, so unknowing and naive. I have seen so little of this world compared to them... But i can only do my best to contribute.
I have asked Jas to teach me to handle a weapon. Now i just hope i can keep my focus on that and not him. I dare not let him know any of my feelings... He would think me a child, so soon and so inexperianced.


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

In the sleeping chambers of the Cathedral

Ohh so much has happened these last couple of days i don't know where to starts and where to stop.

I was at my first guild meeting, I have meet a lot of them already; Stoen, Milwin, Tahrina, Devvy, Tikal, Kalanthe, Chit, Ibelin, Reike... Jerome and Jasdevi

I have fallen again... This is gonna hurt i am afraid to stand between two?

Jas is so unlike me in every way but still i cannot take my eyes of him. They way his black hair falls over his eyes at times, his teasing and sly mannerism, his strong body so unlike at mage. And his eyes, always holding that playful gleam but also holding a deep sadness or pain. I wish i could comfort him, remove the pain, whatever it might be.

Jerry reminds me so much of home it almost hurts, he is the bad boy that always gets into trouble. He always makes me laugh and lifts my spirit. There are so many things about him. He is how i would like to become; adventures, funny, teasing, outgoing and relaxed. I cannot but feel joyful in his presence.

Oh, my head is spinning. My thoughts seems to be a roaring sea. Not even Sister Sarah next to me seems to understand the chaos I feel inside. She is sleeping so soundly just now- unaware how cruel love can be. Oh no, by the light I will not whimper anymore. I have done that enough. I do not envy her calm sleep. The Light is testing my resolve and I will not fail. The light keeps me safe and I will shine through it. As I lay here in the dark night – not able to find rest in my sleep and escape in my dreams. The light warms me when I think of both of them, comforts me when I remember Jas voice, calms me when I think of Jerrys eyes. But i know non of them will ever feel the same, i am just a silly girl, what am i compared to the other beauties of Starlight that has so much more to offer.


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

Outside the Cathedral

I meet with Chit at the gazebo, she asked me to help remove some weeds from the graves and i gladly accpeted. A man came along Jasdevi i think his name was, he helped out as well.
We all talked a while as we removed the weeds. They went to talk afterwards and i am in!
They wanted me! I am so happy i could just burst.
I walked with Jasdevi to throw away the weeds and we talked a little. There is something about him, but i cant quite put my finger on it.
I cant wait to meet all of them. I am getting my Pathfinder soon, i am a little scared about who it can be.
Well i best be getting to bed i will have a long day tomorrow... I am so excited!


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

At the harbour

The interview went well i think. She was such a swwet woman Milwin, i really liked her. If all the others from Starlight are like her i do so hope they will take me in.
She took me to the exodar. I have never been there it was all so bright, all the strange glowing crystals. We had moonbarry juice, it was so delicious. She told me a lot about Starlight and i think it will be the right path for me to follow... if they let me.
Milwin told me i would recive another letter for the second meeting soon.
I cant wait... It has been so long since i have been so excited about things. It feels good.


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

In th gardens of the mage quarters

Ohh it has been so exciting i got my letter from Starlight today and i am going to have a meeting with one called Milwin. I am to meet her in Ruthe'ran village. It will be my second visit to the elves. I am so excited, i have not been able to focus all day. Tomrrow the meeting will be after evening mass. I will have to hurry with my chores.
I wonder what she will be like?


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

A spring day outside Stormwind

I finally got around to mailing the letter and now it is sent. Starlight i wounder what will happen? Will they like me? Will i like them? So many questions my head is spinning.


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

At the cemetary

*the pages is covered with spots where drops of water has blurred some of the letters*

He is gone... How will i go on now... Shall i leave the Cathedral? I know he would not want me too. I have been out walking the streets but it seems i am to shy to just make friends randomly, so i have decided to try and find a guild to join. I have heart a lot about a group of adventures names Starlight. Many praise them, i think i will sent them a letter... some day.

Ohh father why have you left me. I love you with all my heart and all my soul.


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

At the gazebo in Stormwind

It is hard beeing here, studing as i know father lays ill. Sister Brinn went to look at him but she told me that it was only the balance of the world and his aged she cannot heal. He has lived a hard but happy life he keeps reasuring me.
But i will be so lost without him... He has told me to go out more. Get to know people.
But how and where do i start?


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

In the fields of Westfall

It is so nice to be home and have all the family gathered. I like walking around in the setting sun, the corn on the fields golden and rich, the cobold blue of the cornblossoms. Dad says our hair is like the corn, golden and rich. It pains me too see him so weak... I am not sure he will make it through the winter. I need to ask if one of the sisters can have a look at him for there is nothing i can do for him it seem i am not strong enough.


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

A summer evening in the cemetary

Sister Brinn is pleased with my progress, she told me she sees great potential in me...
I have studied hard and i do my chores to perfection.
I still dont get to see Etainna but we have planned to go visit home soon. I am looking forward to seeing them all...I cant wait... Cora must have become so big, in the last six months. Raina sent a letter that dad has been sick a lot, i hope i can do something for him to ease his pains.


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

At the harbour

Thom sent me a letter. He has been called to fight at the front with the Argetn Battalion. He wrote saying he would find me when he got back... Thas over two months ago now... Well i like my work at the Cathedral, but i would just like to gaze into those diamond eyes once more.
Etainna is away training again. I dont get to see her much... i miss her and i miss my family. I think she has found a lover but she does not speak of it in her letters.
Should i ask her?
Do i want the answer?
Why am i beeing like this i only saw him that one evening... I need to move on... I cannot linger in darkness as Sister Glaryn calls it.
Maybe he has died?


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

In the sleeping chambers of the Cathedral

The light steady my heart or it will run away with me.

Today i had my first days work. Lots of dusty old books to read though some of them are very interesting.

My sister came for me after mass. We where cahtting about her day and mine and she wanted me to show her around the Cathedral and ofcourse she wanted to go down to the catacombs where we are not allowed to be. We argued this a little when we saw three men, two of them Etainna knew was paladins and the last was a clerick of the Cathedral that the paladin had with them she told me. They went down into the catacombs. My curiosity won over my resolve and we sneaked after them. When we came down we heard fighting, and in one of the rooms we saw they two paladins fight... It seems it was a sparring session but they where really going hard at each other. They where only wearing pants and both kicked and punched.
One of them cought my eyes, his golden hair, his tone muscular body and those eyes like diamonds so intens with strengt and wisdom. He was the older of the two. The othe one smaller and more agile almost hit him and i couldnt help but let out a yelp, it made him look... stupid me... as he looked into my eyes with those intense eyes, he let down his guard smiling briefly which resulted in a hard blow to his ribs. I heard the crack it chilled my bones to the core... and it was my fault. He didnt seem to notice at first and kicked the othe man away punching him out cold.
The cleric tended to the unconciouss man as the other came over to us. Towering above us i almost thought i would faint. He scowleded us for beeing there but i asked to help tend to their wounds and he let me... i cant belive he let me.
Etainna got talking with the two thers thinking us boring, she wanted to join the fighting... ofcourse they would not let her, but knowing her she will get her way at some point.
He told me his name was Thom as i healed what little i could of the cracked rib, afterwards i bandaged him up... Luccally Sister Kathrine told me never to go anywhere without them.
He talked for hours down there until he finnaly sent me to bed.. both of us. I dont know what Etainna talked with the other two about for all that time?

Ohh praise the light to have let me meet Thom, he promised that he would come see me soon. I can wait.


- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.

In the sleeping chambers of the Cathedral

Finally i feel free... really and utterly free... it os both thrilling and frightening at the same time. We did it Etainna and i, when out into the world.. together.

I indeed miss my family back in Westfall; dad, Raina, not to mention Cora. I hope and pary that they are well and that they understand my need to do this, to stand on my own... to see the world, experience it all... live

I am so tired... so many new sights and sounds. To stand at the gates of Stormwind, to see the Cathedral of Light for the first time. All the different people and races that walk side by side here.

Etainna has gotten admittet to train with the paladins here and i myself was so lucky to be graced with the privalige of becomming an accolyte here. So much to do, so much to learn.

But i will do my best and not dissapoint.

I have been so lucky as i lay here besides some of the other sisters, i am the only one awake, the cathedral lays quiet but still i cannot find rest. Be still my beating heart and calm be my mind if i am ever to find rest.

I think i will sneak out for a little walk in the cool night breeze and the peacfull calm that it holds. Sit and watch the White Lady and maybe find some calmness and sleep.

- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.