I dont pray much these days... I dont know what there is to pray for...
The howl was beautiful and it gave me a sense of closure and peace... Jerry would have wanted us to celebrate his life not mourn it and he would not want me sulking at home, hiding away in darkness...
But he is everything to me still and he always will be... My friend, my lover, my husband and father to my unborn child...
I dont know what it was with Jas, how he can walk back into my life like that... Into my soul...
Well I never healed from what happened. But I am glad we talked, glad we are on good terms...
It was nice just to be close to someone again and forget all the sorrow for a second...
I cant help but to sit her with the rose in my hand looking from that to the ring and back.
I am afraid that I have left myself vulnerable because of all the hurting.
Would he take advantage of that? Would I let him?
I dont love him like that anymore... That was a long time ago, but I did feel very deeply for him and I dont think that has change even though I fear I can never let myself fully trust him again... Never let my guard down like that again.
Suddenly the house holds all the memories of both and I sit hear and I am afraid to sleep.... to dream for what will great me in my dreams?
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