In Dalara

I haven't really had the conviction to pray for a long long time...

Well I have not had many to really show any interest in me and I dont mean in an intimit way... There has only been Jay, Walter, Haleth and.. Jas well to be fair Halath was there on Aylians bidding and i think i was to straight with him as i have not seen or heard from him since that day at the house...

I haven't slept well since Jerry passed away and the only times i sleep for an entire night is when i am to exhausted to do otherwise.

But this night... I slept like a baby... In his arms
Etaine what are you thinking? How could you ask that of him?

I know it was just a friend comforting another and it was really not like i meant anything more by it... but i remember how i felt back then... That was how it started...

I dont fear that Jas will hurt Irenya... He said he had changed a lot since back when we were together.

But now... with all the memories coming back to me... Why did I ask for the towers was that because I was the first girl he ever brought there or was it because that was the first place we kissed.. the first place we.. made love?

Etaine you cant do this, stay away from him before you get yourself hurt again, before you are the cause of someone else getting hurt.

It seems my heart is fickle and cruel cause I know i never really got over him.. I just ran and then buried it...

I really need to write Haleth that letter and ask him out before i get in over my head and do something that will make Jas hate me...

But by the light I was so close to kissing him this morning before he woke. It was more out of habbit or familiarity.. and longing cause i was not fully awake myself and the lay there in his strong arms again, to feel safe again... To FEEL again...

All those thought and memories of back then have left me.. wanting
Letter... Haleth... Now! well right after a coling swim i think...