In the hills of Redridge

The camp is set up... I could not go home...
Right back to square one.

I left the stone and the necklace cause i need to be alone. Left a note to sister Brianna so she will not worry.

I will move further away tomorrow but where to, i do not know... Just away.

He told me i bring out the pure and good in him... And she the devilish.
That he wants me to tame him...
But i dont want to... I fell for his devilish charms and free spirit.

He loves us both and will not choose...
Why does this sound so familier. Though i never loved Jerome.

And again i was right, she was in love with him even before her and Ibelin broke, he told me. How dare she spat at me for beeing confused back then.
At least i was honest.

If i had not left i would have ended it... No more pain and hurt...
But i love him... And i need to think...
I know i need to set him free.
His words has changed, i dont even think he noticed.

Maybe i should just send Nomine that letter. Why did i Even packard it? Or write it in the first place? Did i know deep down that this was all a dream?

I dont know anymore... The darkness whispers words of compfort. I try to shut them out but they are in my head, reaching for my soul...
Maybe give in, find peace again. The promises of taking away my pain, making all better.

Moonglade... The whispers are almost shut out there?


- The ligh... Oh whats the point...