To give in or stay strong

Etaine sat hidden in the shadows of a large withered tree. She moved mostly during the night now and slept a few hours in the evening when Starlight when the world around her seemed most active.
The constant headach she had had the last couple of days, feeling like something wanted to pop her eyeballs right out of their sockets.
The darkhaired female with the scars came to her often now, never saying much only watching... And taunting.
She sat with the fine necklace between her fingers, letting them run over the moonstone, trailing along the polished edges.

Her pain was great as her tears trailed down her face leaving behind clean lines over her dirty face.
She could not help to wonder if he missed her at all, or if he had fully moved on. A small selfish part of her wished he hurt like she did, but no she wanted him to be happy, that had actually been her goal all along. She snorts, how badly she had failed at that part.
The balefull vaiel is stuch in her throat leaving her pain silent and her sobs unheared.
She needed to find a place to settle down for a while, get cleaned up, fix her clothes and maybe send Rabbit and Irenya a letter... Her few hours of sleep had been haunted by the two again... She knew that Jas forever held her heart and love... But Jerry, well he had always been so awair of her... She wanted him mearly to be there as a friend... But was it wise to have him close when she hurted like this? She did not want to end like them, they already had enough similarities with her and Ibelin, she dosent need to be a hypocrit as well because unlike others, she still knew without a shred of daubt that her words and actions had been true...
She shakes her head, she needed to stop lingering in those thought, it made her weak and unfocused... She needed non if she was to hunt in theses ghostly woods.
She unsheaded her dagger gripping it hard in her hand, she just hoped she would soon get better at this so she could get sonething decent to eat instead of things that wanted to eat herself...she moved silently into the night with a dark figure following her every move...