A visit

Etaine sits in the tent with her legs crossed over. She sleept a little, the bourbon helped... Still to strong for her.

Her inner turmoil and the mixed feelings from yesterday spinning around in her head making her all dizzy.

First the trip from outlands and back home... Spend a lot of coins to get that mage to open a portal. Made her think of Jas and the pain got stronger.

At home in westfall, it really didnt feel like home no more. She broke down on the bed, the faint smell of him still lingering in the sheets and blanket.
She cried for a long time before she finally pulled herself together.
She took a swim in the ocean to cool of and get a sence of self again.
She cleaned the house got Nell and Jack to her mothers house. She took the black stallion of her fathers instead. She had pulled on the clothes she had made for Reike as a peace offering, the hat would make it hard to recognice her.

She only came because of Irenyas pleed... Or did she need this just as much herself?
She left the letter for Jerome at the keg, before she turned on the stone with a beating heart and trembling hand. She went to the thunder falls before she heard Irenyas voice on the stone. Seemed no one else was on... Luckily.

Irenya came to talk with her, seeming very worried about her, offering potions to help her sleep and to tend to her feet but Irenya seemed to understand about the refusal and the need for the good pain.
Irenya didnt like the part about the voices... She thought it wise not to tell her of the woman images as well, no need to svare her or have her turn away. She liked Ieenya, she was always so impartial trying to help all. Even made her forget all the hurt for a while when she talked about Stoen and those magasines.

After Irenya left, the darkness and the voices returned like a sledgehammer, pressing at her mind. She thought that has Irenya not given her some of her strength and calmness she would have buckled down.

But Irenya was right... Running was good... She understood that part now...

She took the griphon rute when her feet gave up. She had a good handle on them.

Why did she come to lights hope?

She walked around aimlessly between the graves, the darkness whispering in her head making her not see Rabbit comming up behind her getting her all startled when she turned to almost stand face to face.
At first he didnt even recognice her until she pulled of the hat.

But the sight of him make her break down into tears again. He held her tightly, telling her everything would get better and no matter what they said he would be there for her.
She got annoyed with them all for saying such things, her rage making her burn...
She considered turning on her stone but luckily it was in her backpack.
How could they say such things allways so full of spite all of them so quick to judge...

She wanted to have him stay just to keep the darkness away, he made her calm down, but it would only mean more trouble as they would all think they had been together then, so he went off when the exchaustion took over... It was a short lived sleep and she soon woke with yet another scream of distress caught in her throut...