Ohh so much has happened these last couple of days i don't know where to starts and where to stop.
I was at my first guild meeting, I have meet a lot of them already; Stoen, Milwin, Tahrina, Devvy, Tikal, Kalanthe, Chit, Ibelin, Reike... Jerome and Jasdevi
I have fallen again... This is gonna hurt i am afraid to stand between two?
Jas is so unlike me in every way but still i cannot take my eyes of him. They way his black hair falls over his eyes at times, his teasing and sly mannerism, his strong body so unlike at mage. And his eyes, always holding that playful gleam but also holding a deep sadness or pain. I wish i could comfort him, remove the pain, whatever it might be.
Jerry reminds me so much of home it almost hurts, he is the bad boy that always gets into trouble. He always makes me laugh and lifts my spirit. There are so many things about him. He is how i would like to become; adventures, funny, teasing, outgoing and relaxed. I cannot but feel joyful in his presence.
Oh, my head is spinning. My thoughts seems to be a roaring sea. Not even Sister Sarah next to me seems to understand the chaos I feel inside. She is sleeping so soundly just now- unaware how cruel love can be. Oh no, by the light I will not whimper anymore. I have done that enough. I do not envy her calm sleep. The Light is testing my resolve and I will not fail. The light keeps me safe and I will shine through it. As I lay here in the dark night – not able to find rest in my sleep and escape in my dreams. The light warms me when I think of both of them, comforts me when I remember Jas voice, calms me when I think of Jerrys eyes. But i know non of them will ever feel the same, i am just a silly girl, what am i compared to the other beauties of Starlight that has so much more to offer.
- The light guide my steps and keep my soul forever safe.
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