Elune be praised what an evening... I cant believe this is real. I have thought and dreamed about it so many nights but never thought it would actually come to pass.
He found me by the tree at the harbor, who he managed that i cant imagine.
I was just thinking of him and was unsure if i dared go find him and face him... afraid of the rejection i was sure would come... But it never did!?
He tossed a ball to me, remembering our little joke the other evening. Almost knocked me of the edge catching it but ended on my rear instead... good one Etaine... Didn't you look silly.
Next thing i know he was giving me a backrub... Oh that was heavenly... my poor aching muscles.
I was so sure he was just being sweet ignoring what we had talked about, so he did not have to openly reject me. Boy was i wrong... That kiss... I almost feared he would feel my inner fire, my tiny heart racing so i thought it would explode... but hay i would have died happily.
His strong arms around me pulling me close, his blue eyes regarding me intensively and those lips...
His kiss was so careful and passionate... It was so hard not just to give in to that longing i have had for this for SO long.
I got all fluttered and asked him out for a drink, taking him to the camp... our place...
He had changed to something more formal, was weird seeing him like that but he looked good.
I had changed to my dress on the way and i felt so out of place but he seemed to like it. He pulled me close again.
By the light i could have ravaged him when i heard him say those words... But i behaved i don't want to give it all at once... i need to be sure that this is real and not just some boyish infatuation cause he can have me now.
It was so hard resisting the urge to throw myself at him, to forget everything and just loose myself in him.
He said he wants me.. ME of all the women he has been with and can have with a way of his hand, he has chosen ME!
I haven't gotten much sleep been laying beside him and just watching. He looked so peaceful and innocent as he was laying by my side in the tent... Good thing i brought it...
I wanted to wake him so many times, to whisper my desire into his ears to be with him but not now... not yet. I promised myself after Jas that i would not be a fool twice.
I went for a swim to cool of as dawn broke, he was still sleeping when i slipped out.
I walked a little up the river... the water was so cold and refreshing that i got goosebumps all over.
I felt his eyes on me before i heard his slow steppes, he was trying to hide behind one of the the smaller trees on the hillside... a rogue he will never be i can give him that...
I could not help but to love feeling his wanting eyes run over my body, it made me feel beautiful desirable something i have not felt since i was discarded for another...
I played with him, letting the water run down my warm skin and through my hair making him think i had not noticed him. I teased him by letting my hands slowly caress my body as i washed myself.
I have never seen him blush but when i confronted him, invited him to join me in the water, his cheeks were like blood. It was so cute i could not help but to laugh as i am always the one blushing.
He stripped down so fast he almost fell over with eagerness.
The he came to me... he gently lifted me into his arms and held me close kissing my burning skin. I could feel the warmth of his body pressed against mine. I wanted him so badly and i could feel he was using all his restrain too. We just kissed for a long time deep and passionate. Then he throws me into the cold water again with a grin... Bastard... it was almost like being kids again, playing in the water.
I made me miss my family; Raina and Cora and of course Etainna.
We dried each other off and kissed goodby... cant help but to miss him a little already... I want more of him... always have...
I missed mass but sister Brihanna did not mind, she was just happy to see me really smile again she said i smile that touched my eyes and my soul.
Well now for some training.. need to be fit for fight keeping up with a man like him.
- The light guide me and keep me safe
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