On the cliff, standing in the suns first rays as the fall over Westfall

I feel so lost at times...
How will this all go, do i even dare to find out?

I couldnt even do one simple job; watch Stoen till the others come back
But i fleed, tose words from someone who has not even taken the time to talk with me, the judging... I didnt not see it come from there, i was caught off guard so i ran, seems to be a thing in Starlight or is it in life in general?

Maybe i should find Irenya our trip to Moonglade, she seemed to actually listen and understand...
I didnt even get to see it when we got there, she spend so long getting me there and i didnt get to see it.
Well i need to change that.

Reike... her venomish glare at me... No i cant even go there
those mixed feelings simply pains to much, i just need to put them away i cant sort that one out myself. But i feel it like a festering boyl inside me.

They got Lumi back... now i fear for Imorgans life... What will happen next i wonder.

But beeing with him, makes it all go away. I know i should spend more time with the others that to only be with him does not get me anywhere on that front. But there has just been so much, so much hurt and pain...

When we are together alone it is all as it should be, but when he leaves all the world seems to go to the neathers always something happening to either him or me or...

I was surpriced how easy he took me seeing Selas, well not that he has anything to fear but well seeing as i have it with Reike.
That poor girl beaten up in her own home, i hope Selas finds her and brings her to justice.
It was nice to see him doing what he did for her, he is a caring and nice man and his love for whom ever she is is flawless a devotion one can only envy but then i remeber that other part of him and well it seems that all relationships have their cracks.

I know Jas only says those words because i love to hear them but i so much hope for them to one day come true... It is silly... we have only know each other for such a short time and it has been ups and downs to say the least.
Though i see his point about tat not beeing a bad thing actually because of the motives behind.

I know in my heart that he is the one i love and i will not leave him unless he throws me away...
Like he said... I too am glad that things turned out like this and not the other way...

But one day at i time... I may feel lost at times but the joy i feel inside because of him makes the world shine that much brighter keeping the darkness away.


- The light guide our steeps and keep our souls forever safe.