Outside the house in Westfall

Hmm was not easy to make up something to get away without hurting his feelings but i needed to be alone for a little while. Jst to clear my thoughts.

Last evening i went to the meeting early and when Jas came he was angry because he had gotten in some kind of fight with Reike, her calling him a love sick puppy only doing what i tell him too...
I cant belive her... does she not remember how it was to be in love...
Her words are poison and all seem to belive her sharp tongue
all seem to find me as a little tramp and i guess most would like to see me gone.

I had not seen starlight as been people who just takes one persons word and well maybe i should just leave them... I am off no use to them anyway, i cannot tribute to anything and well as Nomine and Chit said at the meeting Starlight comes first above all else.
I would never be able to do that i fear and frankly i see them slightly ignorant and fullhearted for believing in that... I would lay down my life for every last one of them, but i would go to the ends of the great darkness and back if it was Jas. All would just like Reike told me about Nomine and that Morrigan woman.

And then Jerry goes and turns Jas into a rabbit.. fool he is at times, not that i think he meant any harm but well still he should know Jas better than to pull a prank like that on him.
But it seems i changed his mood afterwards.
That was so intense and well exciting, i dont see that beeing the last time.

We went to the bridge to talk and all of a sudden i feel the coldness off steel against my throuth. Jas called RIPA over the stone and Jerry came there in seconds and Reike was amazing... yet somewhat scary as she took the man full on, thought she would have killed him. So much anger in her so much pain i guess.

Bet he did not have me put two and two together they are going to that Kalanth assignment tomorrow yet funny thing that both Reike and Jas are leaving today...

I dont see this ever ending Jas cought between the two of us. I am just not sure how to handle this pull away or belive in the words that at one time seems so truthfull and deep yet moments later seems hollow and empty... I really belive he means the words when he says them... but...


- The light guide my steps and keep our souls forever safe.