Sitting in the suns first rays as it raises over Westfall

I could not stay at the Cathrdral for long, i feel so imprisonned there. What does that mean? Am i no longer fit to become a priestess?
I had a long talk with Sister Brianna and she said that she feels my studies work well for me and that i keep improving, that i am a natural healer when my emotions do not cloud my abilities.

I was sitting on one of the stonebenches at the foot of the cathedral stairs when all of a sudden Selascius stod there with a warm and caring smile. I was o the edge again becomming all jittery.
He told me he had taken Nell to the guards stables and that he was only here to make sure everything was alright. I could not refuse his kindness. He sat down asked me me honest concerne about my leg, he even brought me a bouque of wildflowers all whites, golden and reds. He told me there was noting in the flowers it was just for a friend that needed something to look at instead of the Cathedral walls.
We started to talk about Jas as he clearly sensed my distress over everything that has happen between us and the longing to have him back.
Wow maybe i should hire his as a consulent bcause he is surprisingly deep and his questions and suggestions have really gotten me thinking, and i actually think that that suggest to remove my concern and feeling about beeing forgotten when there are others. I think i will talk to Jas about that... well if he will stay long enough to listen to me.
Selascius said he needed to have a talk with Jas to sort all of this out as it seems that reike has made more harm than damage and well seeing as he will not really belive my words. I told how i thought Jas would react to beeing confronted by him, but he just laughed it away and said that they would both be find.
Some noble came to talk with the guards about some episode in the city last night, sounded to me like those embrace that the others have mentioned or are there just so many shadowcasters around?
I will be going home tonight as it seems the city is not a more safe place for me to be anyways. And at home i feel him a little closer.

Well after my studies i wanted to go past the bridge to see if any would be there but it was empty so a sat and rested my leg on the edge when i hear the rush of large wings and turn to ind Tikal just befor he pushes me in i hear a sly squick.
I scowled him about my leg when i finally got up and he was sorry and wanted to help with his own healing powers that realy helped and after that it was only slightly sore, though i am still to keep waight off it for a day or two more.
Karina came and they were talking about their children...
Ibelin came as well and the two of them went off to talk. Tikal told me about Ibelins formers reltionships and how Tikal had been forced to kill one of them, one who was pregnant with Ibelins child. I still told Tikal that Ibelin has come back this time, he fights for them this time and one needs to hold hope in love.
He ended up agreeing with me more or less. Then he asked abut Jas and we start this whole love and immortality debat, really deep for that time of the day and we end up talking about the druids dream world.

It was very interesting but i was becomming really tired and i think Tikal noticed to we said our good nights and i went home and snugged into bed in front of the fire, Missy and Jack i had taken in and they seemed to enjoy that. Jas was right they make it slightly more bearing. The sheets still holds his scent and i cuddled up in the large blanket.

I just hope they will all be safe up there...

- The light guide his steps and keep his soul forever safe and bring him back to me safely.